Only Living Girl In La Letras

Song Words

Only Living Girl in LA by Halsey[Verse 1]
I'm the only girl alive in LA county

She feels isolated, as though she's the only one in her world, likely indicating a sense of loneliness or alienation in LA.

I'm the only one who sees (Ayy)

Expresses a feeling of being uniquely aware or burdened by an understanding others around her lack.

I wake up every day in some new kind of suffering

Hints at an enduring, evolving struggle, with each day bringing fresh emotional pain.

I've never known a day of peace

Her life is marked by turmoil, with peace being something she's yet to experience.

I wonder if I ever left behind my body (Ooh)

Imagines leaving behind her physical self, contemplating an escape from her suffering.

Do you think they'd laugh at how I die?

Considers the potential trivialization or dismissal of her death by others, exposing her insecurities.

Or take a photo of my family in the lobby

Reflects on the societal obsession with spectacle, even in death.

The ceremony's small inside

Visualizes a modest, perhaps intimate farewell, contrasting with public perceptions of fame.

'Cause I don't know if I could sell out my own funeral (Ah-ah)

Questions if her life would attract attention in death, showing a disconnect between her fame and personal worth.

At least not at this point in time

Suggests she may still hope for recognition or value at some point in her life.

And if I ever try to leave behind my body

Reflects on thoughts of escaping or separating from herself as a way to manage pain.

At least I know it was never mine, it was never mine

Highlights a sense of detachment or disownership over her body, likely due to external pressures or personal struggles.

[Verse 2]
Well, I'm the only girl alive in New York City

Maintains her sense of isolation, now extending it to a bustling city known for its crowdedness and impersonal feel.

I left my wallet on the train

Shows a lapse in self-care, possibly symbolizing a loss of identity or control.

Since I no longer even have a driver's license

Reinforces her disconnection from her identity, with a literal loss of personal identification.

I guess that means I have no name (This is Halsey St)

Suggests a feeling of being nameless or forgotten in a vast, indifferent city.

And I could run away to somewhere on the West Coast

Entertains the idea of escaping to a different location, in hope of finding a sense of self or peace.

And finally be a real-life girl

Conveys a desire for authenticity and freedom from her public persona.

Go take my organs and they'll hang me from a bedpost

Highlights a feeling of exploitation, as if even her death would be objectified.

Sayin' I was too soft for this world

Implying that sensitivity and vulnerability are viewed as weaknesses, especially in high-pressure environments.

And they'd be right, because quite frankly, to be alive
It shouldn't kill me every day, the way it does

Reflects on the paradox of her existence: life itself is causing her pain, challenging her ability to endure.

I don't know what I did to have this fate I'm drenched in it

She feels resigned to her struggles, as if cursed with unending hardship.

And I can't even run from what I know

Admits she cannot escape the awareness of her suffering or what she endures.

My special talent isn't writing, it's not singing
It's feeling everything that everyone alive feels every day

Conveys that her true "talent" is her heightened sensitivity to emotions, both hers and others.

Feels every day, feels every day, feels every day

[Verse 3]
I think I'm special 'cause I cut myself wide open

Explores her belief that vulnerability and self-revelation set her apart.

As if it's honorable to bleed

Questions the glorification of emotional suffering, wondering if it's genuinely meaningful or necessary.

But I'm not lucky and I know I wasn’t chosen

Recognizes that her pain isn’t a noble burden; it’s just an unfortunate reality.

The world keeps spinnin' without me

Reminds herself that her struggles are personal and unnoticed by the larger world.

I told my mother I would die by twenty-seven

Refers to the famed "27 Club" of young artists lost early, symbolizing a sense of predestined self-destruction.

And in a way, I sort of did

Implies a part of her spirit or identity has already "died" due to fame and hardship.

This thing I love has grown demanding and obsessive

Expresses the toll of her passion and career on her well-being, as it's become a consuming force.

And it wants more than I can give, than I can give, than I can give

[Verse 4]
Well, I'm the only girl alive in LA County
I've never known a day of peace

Revisits her isolation in LA, reiterating her constant inner turmoil.

I wake up every day and wish that I was different

Expresses a desire for change, wishing for relief from her struggles and her nature.

I look around and it's just me

Ends with a stark acknowledgment of her loneliness.

It's just me, it's just me

[Outro]
Ah-ah, ah-ah-ah
Ooh, ayy
Wee-ooh, wee-ooh, yeah-yeah

The outro uses vocal sounds to emphasize a haunting and unresolved feeling.

I'm the only one, the only one, it's me

Concludes with an acceptance of her solitude, highlighting her loneliness as the central theme of the song.